Though You Slay Me...
"He's not a tame lion."
He's not the one who would hurt us
God will never give you more than you can handle
So why is it that so often
I lie in bed with tears streaming down my face?
Why do I hear His voice and wonder if it's a voice that loves me or not?
Why is it that I read His word and feel like I am a stranger
What is love?
Does love come with pain?
And why, if God loves me, does he not stop it?
I don't know.
I don't know
I don't know...
My heart is broken
And sometimes
No so often
It feels like God doesn't care
and I am TIRED
And they ask me why I'm burnt out and I can just say
God is good but God is gone
Isn't he?
Is he here
Please
Please tell me here's here
I open the Book and I whisper
"Though you slay me"
"Yet I will praise you"
And there's no answer, maybe not now
maybe never
I just
keep reminding myself
that he is worth it all
all the pain
all the grief
and even if I see no reward this side of eternity
when I wake up in Glory
when I see his face
though he slay me here
I will praise him then
8 comments
my love, this is beautiful. As you know I'm always here for you. <3
ReplyDeleteYou are loved
you are important
you are amazing
<3 <3 <3
*Hugs* You'll get through this, He'll always get you through. <3
ReplyDelete"He is worth it all." AMEN! I've actually just recently been reading devotions about patience and heartache, and how God ALWAYS has a perfect purpose in it all. Life can be so hard, and this year is proving that more than ever. But God is still sovereign, still perfect, still our loving Father who will guide us and help us and hold us through the storms.
ReplyDeleteIt makes me think of James 1:2 - 4.
"My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing."
We have a good God!
Thank you for sharing your heart with us. It is always a blessing. <3
"He's not a tame lion." <--- YES. I love that you put this quote here. <3 This whole post is so real and deep and good. One of my favorite things to think about (and let me know if I've told you this before, I have a terrible memory. XD) is that the arrow doesn't know why it's being pulled away from the target, but without that it can't go forward. <3
ReplyDeleteOh, that was beautiful!!!! I loved it!!! Girl, your spiritual strength is phenomenal!!!
ReplyDeleteThat was beautiful, Fee-fee. I love you. God is always good.
ReplyDeleteThis was absolutely beautiful. ;-; <333
ReplyDelete<3 <3 <3
ReplyDeleteHello, friends! Do make yourselves comfortable and stay for a while--I'd love to chat with you! I simply ask that you keep it clean. :)