i'm supposed to be cramming but i wrote a poem instead

by - October 18, 2021

 there's something about this idea

this concept that we all have to be okay all the time

it makes you feel worse--

because you look at the people around you and they're all fine 

but it makes you feel better--

because that one person who can't hide it anymore

at least you're not her

and it makes you feel worse--

you're not fine and you know it

but it makes you feel better--

at least no one can say anything about your facade


and that's why it hurts

but it's a comfort

to fake it, tie on a mask

pain, the masked vigilante 

ready to murder the people who don't get it 

if they understood 

i wonder if they'd be kinder 


but understanding their pain means you understand your own a little better

if you can read someone else's heart

you take that first step

you suddenly understand why your pain hurts

it's valid for them why not for me? 

and you start to wonder...


what if the mask fell off

and we were left 

with the truth

would we die...


or would we fly

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12 comments

  1. My word. Faith. I love this poem so much - exactly what I needed this morning. Thank you. <3 <3 <3

    (also the title is too relatable XD)

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  2. Sometimes those poems and words and thoughts need to get out... and they push and push and make it impossible to do much of anything else until they're on paper.

    And these ones seem like the sort that aren't willing to sit quietly waiting their turn.

    I hope your cramming goes well.

    And if this poem reflects how you're feeling... know that you are not alone. Most of us have experienced moments, days, weeks, years, where we walk through life wrapped in private pain of some kind, pretending we're fine, but we're not. *hugs*

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    1. Thank you so much, Jenelle <3 I appreciate it, so much. Things are much better now :)

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  3. I love your poetry. I love your raw honesty and your truth. you never cease to amaze me with the words you write. <3 <3 <3

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  4. Beautiful, Faith. <3 <3 <3 It's so true--seeing other people making their pain visible makes one wonder about one's own.

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    1. it does. I'm always encouraged by people who are able to be honest about their emotions.

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  5. Love that ending! <3


    Alexa
    thessalexa.blogspot.com

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Hello, friends! Do make yourselves comfortable and stay for a while--I'd love to chat with you! I simply ask that you keep it clean. :)